I CHOOSE JOY!

I CHOOSE JOY TO HAVE PEACE. Events take place in our lives which force us to seek rest. We find comfort by placing our faith in God and allowing Him to be exactly who He says He is. He gives us a peace we cannot fathom. His peace displaces the powers of darkness. His peace moves our emotions out of the way and gives us the audacity to make decisions we would never make without Him.  When we choose His peace over our distress, things change.  

I remember being in an unhealthy, yet familiar space. All hope was lost. The only words I could muster up were, “God give me peace.” I didn’t truly know what I was asking for- I just said it. That peace manifested 2 days later as I had the courage to bring my unhealthy lifestyle to a close. You ever not know where you were headed, but knew you couldn’t stay where you were? IN JOY I UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING DOESN’T NEED TO BE UNDERSTOOD. It didn't concern me where I was headed because if I choose JOY, I win. What I thought was mine, I lost. Little did I know you can’t lose what you never had.  CHOOSING JOY IS BELIEVING I WILL GET BACK BETTER THAN I LOST. What I did lose was me. I’d lost my identity. My creativity. My truth was gone.  But when I chose me, I was fully committed to become who I was created to be. I repeated my affirmations daily, until I believed them. 

I’m going to make you so proud, note to self.

I do whatever I want. 

Try my best. 

Me vs me. 

Make it happen, shock everyone. 

This is going to be one of the best years of my life spiritually, physically, financially and emotionally. 

WHEN I CHOOSE JOY I CREATE MY HAPPINESS; I DO WHATEVER I WANT. I started walking with a purpose. I decided to do what I wanted to do. I learned to block phone numbers. I started “doing me!” I got selfish with me. I was the only one who knew how I felt.  (Always remember, no one can tell you how to feel or heal. Take as long as you need to be a better you.) I learned to not do what was right or good, but what made me better. I became my own life coach. I defined me for me. I began to take care of me so I could be exactly who “I” need. I found JOY in my journey. 

I sought what satisfied me. I took “bathroom breaks” to have me time. I began going to bed early and waking up early to have alone time. I do what I want, during my time. I chose to live my kind of healthy.  AS LONG AS I CHOOSE JOY, I WELCOME WHATS BEST FOR ME SPIRITUALLY, EMOTIONALLY, FINANCIALLY AND PHYSICALLY. Meditating on scripture became a habit. That was the only way I would know and believe who I AM. The desire for righteousness grew. Choosing me became a priority. Walks in the park become daily rituals. I learned to accept gifts. I felt. I healed.  I’VE GOT JOY INSTEAD OF MOURNING. Have you ever been so numb to emotional pain to the point you didn’t realize you’re living an unhealthy life until you realized you were living an unhealthy life? No one could tell you you, you’re sick. You miss signs. You believe the blinding bondage. I’m glad I asked for peace that day. Thats when my mind aligned with my spirit and I succumbed to the spiritual war. I could’ve easily continued the wishful thinking and lying to myself. But JOY. JOY took over the hurt. I chose to begin to disregard the opinions of others. I chose to forget my past and seek what was ahead. I chose self-fulfillment over validation. I chose to speak up and not stay in bondage. I chose to be the individual I was created to be.

The journey continues…

”I choose JOY to have peace. In JOY I understand that everything doesn’t need to be understood. Choosing JOY is believing I will get back better than I lost. When I choose JOY I create my own happiness; I do whatever I want. As long as I choose JOY, I welcome what’s best for me spiritually, emotionally, financially and physically. I’ve got joy instead of mourning.”

-JOY